Why do we privileged, smart, gifted Christian women still have self-doubt? It is because we have not had a clear picture in our minds of who we are. We have not known the powerful, equal-opposite importance of our lives. The assurance of the importance of your “being” comes from knowing who you are. You are a spirit, soul and body: a female designed by your Creator to be in His Own Image! All three parts of you come together as “you”—a woman unique, powerful, and gifted.
The nagging of restlessness of my insecurity began to fade when I discovered in Scripture that my place needed to be filled by me! a place that no one else could.
So conscious was I of others and their abilities that I neglected to recognize my own. After years of trying to figure out what the Bible said to me (as a woman) I began to comprehend significance in my own being. I came to see that I am unique and significant. You, me and every person created in the image of God is indeed so: gifted and with a destiny. You will find answers only by going to the right place, by studying the Bible, because it claims “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge.” As you allow this reality to seep into your soul the thrill of just being you will slowly, quietly come to your mind, soul and heart.
Psalm 139:14 gives you permission to give thanks to God for the person you are: “I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are Your works: and that my soul knows right well.”
As I began to quietly develop confidence, my depression lifted and the sadness finally began to leave. Back then, I did not understand that, I like the Virtuous Woman in Proverbs, was free to think what I thought, discover and grow. She had an entire lifetime to accomplish it, of course, but she did it—and had it all! She fulfilled her promise, her personal potential and assured her own happiness as she “built her house”. (This was her personal power, not controlled by any other).
This alerted me: I should go and do this.